Today was a hectic day and all through the day I kept thinking to myself that I'm not suppposed to let it get this bad. This is the opposite of mindfulness. This is why im doing a daily practice in the first place, to prevent myself from getting like this. I don't want to constantly think about all the things I have to next. I don't want to constantly fret about all the things I didn't do. Today, I thought about my daily practice as just another thing I had to do, and I really didn't like that, so I put it off as long as I could. This gave me time to adjust to my obligations and calm my mind. Still, the DP was harder today than it has been. I broke it up into three segments. I find that this helps if I am having problems. If I feel fine I'll just play straight through for fifteen minutes or more.
At first my mind wondered freely and though I realized it, I didn't even try to stop it. I found that I wanted to think. I enjoyed the spontaneity of it. I observed as my mind did acrobatics. But soon enough I got back to worrying about work and fretting about life and all that other unpleasant stuff. So, I stopped recording and started again. The second time was better and the third time was even better than that. I think I'll make it a personal goal withing the daily practice to continue until I can go at least a minute thinking about nothing but playing the guitar. A minimum of one minful minute each time.
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