Intuitive un-conscious

About six months ago, three of us were invited to travel to Kuwait in the summer of 2010 to spend a month there filming a full lenth documentary. We were all very enthusiastic, and Rachel and Kawther immediately announced that they would go. When they asked me, I was reluctant to respond. I truly wanted to go, but I just wasn't sure if I would be able to go, and I didn't want to say yes if it turned out to be false.
Right off the bat Rachel said to me "Its ok, you can say no, I know you're not going to go." I protested, insisting that I really wanted to. i said its dangerous to make assumptions. But Rachel stood by what she said. "I just don't think you'll end up going, no matter what you do."
After that we didn't talk about it for a long time. Then these past few weeks, it became an issue again. After months of thinking, of weighing by options, my obligations, my needs, my financial situation, I decided that I can't go. As much as I want to, I just can't. The complications are numerous, and the conflicts of interest incessant, and now, afer countless hours of indecision and torment, I feel certain that I cannot go.
So last night I talked to kawther and Rachel and told them my decision. Rachel said to me, "I kind of knew all along you weren't going, even though I wanted you to." Rachel acted like the intuitive art experts describe in Blink. I acted like the scientists in LA, who wished that one thing to be true, and searched for evidence to back it up. Rachel knows me extremely well, sometimes better than I know myself. This is not the first time she's predicted my actions before they happened.
I admit that I often feel these impulses without listening to them. For example at the beginning of the year I felt that I wante to switch out of sculpture, yet I'm still here. Perhaps I should listen to my intuition more often. but perhaps not. Lately my intuition has been pointing to unpleasant things. I think thats when I'm most reluctant to listen to it.